Facebook = Bad Relationship

Tonight, as I was rocking Flynne to sleep, I got my phone out to check Facebook as soon as she drifted off to dreamland. My precious daughter was sound a sleep in my arms & here I was looking to see what happened in the last 30 minutes regarding people I hardly even know. It sucks me in more than I'd like to believe and like I've stated before, I'm a control freak, but in this situation I'm the one getting controlled. Which really irks me. While scrolling through the current newsfeed I came across an article about being "hands free" and how all of the social media, cell phones, twitter, Facebook are consuming our lives and pulling us away from the ones we love. Wow! Talk about hitting you square in the face. I take a moment to turn & watch my daughter sleep so innocently not knowing how much our world has changed. I have a thousand thoughts running through my head, why do I have Facebook? What do I even gain from checking it constantly? Does it really help me stay in contact with my closest friends & family who mean the most to me? I gain NOTHING & it does NOT help me stay in contact with my dearest friends & family. So why do I have it? I'm nosey, curious, want to stay connected to people I haven't talked to in 8 years? I don't know the real reason, but I know it's not worth it. I obviously have no self-control when it comes to checking it once a day, or when I'm by myself. Being a full time teacher, wife & mommy is challenging enough & I continue to learn what matters the most. In 5 years, I don't want my daughter to think all mommy does is play on her phone all the time. I want her to know she has my full attention when telling me what happened while I was gone, or when she's babbling & reading me a book. I want her to know that while we are in the car I'll be singing along with her & describing the things we see out the window as we pass by. I want her to know that I'm watching her every move at gymnastics, soccer, or whatever else she is involved in & not playing on my phone. I want her to know that the real way to communicate is face to face, looking each other in the eye, not on the Internet. Most importantly, I want her to know that I'm always here for her whenever she needs me & not preoccupied by other things. Like I've said before, it's the little things that matter because in the end, they are the BIG things. So, tonight, I've posted my last Facebook post, saying bye bye! I know I've done this before, just like Brett Favre, but this time it's for real, seriously! I look forward to my new life of soaking up more quality time with my daughter & husband!