A person who feels an obsessive need to exercise control and to take command of any situation.
Remember when I said I like to be in control? I have always found it very hard to adjust and accept others requests that I do not always agree with, or more bluntly, that I don't want to do. I'm 27 years old and still haven't learned how to "not sweat the small stuff". I'm trying to enjoy every moment & enjoy the little things, but when will I learn to let go of the things I can't control? I wonder why everyone doesn't think like I do? Clearly, I'm one of the more "common-sensed" thinkers, according to myself, but that doesn't matter when I'm dealing with other people. Sometimes this just makes it all that more frustrating. Of course, this is my own opinion, and I'm not saying it's right or wrong or good or bad, I'm admitting that I have trouble accepting things I can't do anything about, I don't have a say in, or something I'm being TOLD to do.
That being said, I suppose my next area of improvement should be to not be such a control freak. Things are things & money is money, but family, friends & coworkers are all deserving of a happy & positive attitude, someone who is willing to do whatever needs to be done, even if you don't like it, don't want to do it, or think it's plain stupid.
I'm trying to make positive changes in my life and this is definitely something that won't happen over night. My first step is to take a deep breath & acknowledge that we are all different and not everyone thinks like me, or cares about the same things I do, or has the same interests or style as I do. If we were all the same, that would be an awfully boring life. I'm definitely not the life of the party, or the queen of style (I'm normally in khakis & a plain sweater), or super smart, or hilarious. But I am a caring & compassionate person who enjoys making others smile and reaching out to people that I think need a smile or someone to talk to. I root for the underdog & try my best at almost everything I do (except dieting :)). When it comes down to it, I don't want to be known as the pain in the butt who was always stubborn, unwilling to budge, or difficult in certain situations. So, here's to accepting others differences & loving everyone for who they are.
Side-note from The Teacher's Lounge:
Just when I want to yell at a student for screwing around & not paying attention to me, he comes up with a comment like this, "Mrs. Chandler, how'd you ever get involved in teaching, when you could be a model? I mean seriously!" I couldn't help but laugh & smile, because honestly if you knew the source, you'd only laugh too!
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